You may have detected that the last few weeks were full of things that are not simple…
Dealing with changes to the household… changes to schedules… untraining 10 years of bad habits and retraining good ones.
I hold my Giant to ridiculously high standards I’m sure… all the while holding myself to higher ones.
Last night we both hit a breaking point with much yelling and tears and frustration… Giant was kinda upset too…
and while last night isn’t going to show up on the highlight reel of parenting moments to be proud of, I found some silver linings that I CAN cherish… some simple things mixed in with the not-so-simple things.
I saw glimmers of hope as Giant found some of his words to help me to better understand him.
I shared tender moments where shared tears brought Giant and I closer… if only for a moment.
I gained the strength to do the things that need to be done.
I received care and love from my friend who remind me that when you look at the big picture, I’m still doing ok…
I received compassion from others who simply shared virtual hugs and reminders that I’m not alone in the struggle.
I received relief in the ability to share truths that aren’t with people who matter and be heard without judgement
I received laughter from and old friend who I haven’t talked to in a while and we picked back up just like old times.
I was reminded by another friend that I am important to them even in ways that can’t be expressed in words.
And then when I was looking at all the little, simple things, I was reminded that those are the things that matter the most anyway. And for that I was thankful too.
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